As I lay here in my warm bed, in my own room, which is actually owned by my parents, who just took me out to eat for a very nice meal, after I came home from college, college that they are supporting me through, a college where I have met incredible people who will now be (hopefully) life-long friends... and I can not go to sleep because I am worrying about my future? wow.. really

Talk about a lack of faith on my part. How many times has God taken care of this? Am I not reminded of the countless promises from God-- that He's got my back?

But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? --Matt. 6:30

Humble yourselves, therefore under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxiety on him, because he cares for you. --1 Peter 5:7

just to name a couple...

But not only can I trust that God will take care of me--He already has! He has blessed me sooooooo much! He could have stopped just at salvation... but He continues to show me goodness and kindness I don't deserve.

And the grand finale on why this is such a lack of faith on my part....God has taught me more and more and more-- He is all I need. I may have thought that certain things would make me feel complete in life...but they didn't... nothing truly will but God. The times that I pursued these "things" that I thought I needed or that would satisfy me--these are the times that broke my heart. But God heals the brokenhearted.. and I am one of those brokenhearted he has fixed more than once. The biggest mystery in life to me... God's love.

With God, I got all I need--don't need to worry. Bring it on future.


"Satisfy me Lord, I'm begging you to help me see you are all I want you are all I need.... Satisfy me Lord." -Tenth Ave. North