The semester if wrappin up! Project due tomorrow, 1 exam Monday, 1 exam Tuesday, and 2 Wednesday.....then Saturday. back to Liberty to meet my team, drive to DC... and then off to Guatemala...I still can't believe it....

So yesterday in one my classes I felt like a complete idiot. We were watching this video on American education....I saw how much we have digressed... just to say the least. It was embarassing. Some of the math problems 4th grade students had to do in their head, I don't even know if I could have done on paper....it was that bad. It was also interesting to see how much of the Bible they know, becasue then it could and was taught in school. It was taught as though it were the most important book... which it is.

I just felt dumb again. I was reading in John 17. In my Bible it is entitled the "High Priestly Prayer." Jesus is talking about how much He wants us to be one with the Father. To know God, like He does. He wants us to be full of joy. Jesus wants what is best for us...
Then I was thinking back to chapter 11... this is where Jesus raised Lazarus. He made a dead man alive again... after the high priests heard about this they decided Jesus must be put to death (vs. 53).
It reminds me of how, even though we are dead in our sin, Jesus makes us alive. through his death, burial, and most importantly ressurection....

The reason I feel dumb...it's the end of the semester but almost the beginning of another journey. so many thoughts are running through my head.... but really there should just be one... I'm tired, but I don't need rest I need Jesus. I'm scared, but I don't need assurance from people who have been on this trip before, I need Jesus. I'm caught worrying about future plans.... but I need to worry about Jesus. I sometimes find my self wanting things that I know aren't right at this time in my life.... but I should want more of Jesus. He want me to know Him more...He wanted it so bad that He died so that I may life.... now I want to make sure that I live for Him. I need Him... and I want to bring praise to His name.

Take my moments and my days; let them flow in ceaseless praise.

Take my hands, and let them move at the impulse of Thy love.

Take my feet, and let them be swift and beautiful for Thee.

Take my will, and make it Thine; it shall be no longer mine.

Take my hear, it is Thine own; it shall be They royal throne.

Take my love, my Lord, I pour at Thy feet its treasure store

Take myself, and I will be ever, only, all for Thee.