so no waterfall today because apparently we are experiencing tropical storm agatha.. what a name...

today we just had a free day.. it was great.. despite all the lluvia... we still managed to get in the pool and play volleyball.. still no sign of a tan... except.. i kind of have a chaco tan!!!

rebecca- i felt like you today.. because i had bug bites all up my leg.. lots of us did.. there are more bugs in the rain its crazy!!! some times i feel like God has sent another plague of flies....but neway.. we were playing spoons under a cavana and apparently its prone to bugs.. and a bunch of us had bug bites that formed constellations.. good thing i got an A in astronomy so i could identify them.. haha

this week have been reminded of a lesson that God has already tried to teach me... 2 Cor. 12: 9.. My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weakness so that the power of Christ may rest upon me..

Sometimes i just wish I could do more.. many times this week I wish I knew more Spanish.... Sometimes I wish I was smarter so that I knew how to treat sickness like a doctor... sometimes I wish I was more compassionate and understanding so that I could help people when they were upset and crying... but I myself can not always do this...

When my roommate's brother died, I wanted nothing more than to be able to comfort her... but I myself could not.. I was weak..but I serve a God who is strong.. and so does she.. Many times when people are upset and crying I want to have the right words to say.. but I never feel like I do... but I know that God cares and holds all our tears... One year at the summer camp I work at, I wished more than anything that I could help make a little boy's intense sun burn not hurt, though it was severe enough to cause blisters.. I wish I could have stopped his screams and tears of pain.... but all I could do was give him aloe and try to make him smile...At the nursing home I worked at over Christmas and the one I visit poeple in now.. I wish I was a doctor or nurse or just knew more about the human body to be able to soothen pain or heal...but God is the ultimate healer...

I remember my first couple of days at Carver, and how many times my first couple of days I almost or did break into tears...hopelessness and helplessness are horrible.. I experienced this feelings in the greatest capacity Friday.

This nursing home I have been going to here in Guatemala is soooo different than Carver.. there are no nurses or doctors.. let alone tons of meds.. its simply a place old people live when they have no family... sometimes nurses come in, but they dont work there.. they get fed... i guess that get cleaned.. dont really know... but neway.. the few of us that have been going pretty much just go sit and talk with em... its been alot of fun and they are really good teachers..

Friday I was helping a lady sweep outside.. haha.. remember.. in guat they sweep outside... we were sweeping water so it wouldnt get in her room or build up in the walk way.. I have talked to this lady before and I'm pretty sure I have stepped her room... but I had never seen her roommate until friday..

I feel as though I have a pretty small wrist.. I can hold one wrist with my index finger and thumb of the other hand... I'm pretty sure this lady's thigh was about the size of my wrist...Flies were all over her.. I walked over and started out with an hola, como esta.... but she didnt answer.... i walked back outside and tried to talk to her roommate about her.. wuts her name... how old.. how long has she been here.. wuts wrong with her....

in a nutshell... i know she has been there 10 yrs.. dont know her name... she use to be able to walk when she first got there... but other than that I know and could do nothing... Spanish was a boundary as me and my nursing buddies couldnt really understand the other roommate, a lady that worked there, or the actual lady.... We didnt know if we could move her... she was so fragile and weak... i hate that we could not even know her name....

We decided the only thing we could do is pray... that should have been the first thing... but my instincts took over and i immediately wanted to take action....

but our first action in all circumstance should be to drop to our knees and beg God for guidance and strength.. because we are nothing on our own..
easier said than done.. but I know I need to work on this...

Everything I am, I am in Christ... therefore everything I do by Christ...

until the next time the internet works