26 days till Guatemala...and it still has not set in that I am going. I have been overwhelmed with the generosity and support of my family, my church family, and even just friends of the family. My mom has started "collecting" toiletries, people I don't even know that well have sent money, people ask me about it at church just wanting to know more--so many people care about this.
THANK YOU! for those of you who contributed to my trip--whether finicial or prayer--I apreciate it so much. I don't deserve it.

Like in my last post...I've really been evaluating how real and genuine I am about my faith. Last night I had a good talk with a good friend about it-- it helped out.. Thanks ;D I have too many great friends.. once again... I don't deserve them.

It's my third year at Liberty and I have noticed a trend. When it gets close to the end of the semester its so easy to become short-term minded. Even at a Christian college... we get tied up in exams, summer plans, plans for next year... it really does have potential to be stressful. Being in college isn't just about passing the tests or even getting the degree. It's so much more... it's living for God. Easy to say--but for many, including myself at times, it's hard to keep this mindset.
It's about eternity.. not getting the diploma, not landing the career, not even finding Mr. Right.
We often quote Philippians 3:14 when feeling overwhelmed.. "I press toward the goal." For me, the goal is not finishing this semester, it's not about completing a 2-month trip to Guatemala, graduating from college, landing the perfect teaching job.. not even settling down and having a family. My goal won't be finished until I see Jesus' face... and I don't know when that is...
But I am going to keep running towards Him, knowing that I am nothing of myself. I need Him. My everything is in Him. I so badly crave the "righteousness that comes from faith," not just from yourself (Phil. 3:8). It's more than just being a good person or "Christian-like"... Anyone can put on a show.. but I want a real passion to burn in my heart. Not a passion of solely doing good, but a passion for eternity.. a passion for God and furthering His Kingdom.

I have so much to work on, and one thing for sure--though I am 21.. I don't have time to take a break from working towards this goal of just knowing God more and more. I have so far to go...I always will until heaven.

God, You have overwhelmed me.

Fix my heart God.

Mend it and mold it to be like Yours.

Set my heart on You and my eyes on eternity.

Not so that I am a better Christian...

I will never be good enough to deserve You or the blessings that come from You...

but so that ultimately,

You are glorified.

"Break my pride till all I see....is all of you, uncovering me."