Tonight I was chillin' with some girls in my prayer group before hall meeting (we had been practicing for the "dance-off"). I was having such a hard time keepin my eyes open.. which was weird becaue it was only 9 o clock--that's prime time for us college students. Anywayzz-- I asked them if I looked tired, because I felt sooo tired, but I didn't think I should be? They told me right away that I did....That really boosted my self-esteem. I love looking tired! I asked if it was because I didn't have eye make-up on.. they said no-- I looked more tired than normal (which made me think I always look tired). Once again.. a definite ego-booster.

Spring semester is like a love/hate relationship. It's great because summer is just around the corner, the weather warms up, and my birthday is in March...The bad thing is pollen (which I'm okay with now, the rain washed it away) and you have to do allllll kinds of stuff for next semester!

I hate details...My mom can attest to that. I'm okay not knowing everything and just going with the flow. I get that from my dad. I like being sponatenous. My mom calls it "care-free." So having to pick classes next year, looking for places to live, and even thinking about student teaching for next year drives me up the wall. Can I not just live this day? Geewhizzz what if Jesus comes back before Guatemala? O yeah-- Guatemala, as you suspect, requires me to do all that detail stuff as well.

I hope I'm not complaining.. I'm not.. I know details are good and required-- it's just not my forte. If you need some creativity or spontaneity-- look me up

The point of all this. The end of the semester is rapidly approaching which means Guatemala is right around the corner... AHHHHH!!!! Lots to get done before then... but it makes me sooo excitied... ( when I get over my strong dislike for details)...

I don't know about you, but when I was little I use to not be able to sleep well before the first day of school. Did you know that mom? I would just lay in my bed for the longest time wondering about what would happen that school year! What would my friends look like? What would we learn? Would our teacher be Hitler or an angel? Tons of homework or a teacher who didn't believe in homework (my 4th grade teacher!!!).... Tons of thoughts. Even in college I do this... before the first day of classes. It's just so exciting, especially in college, to meet new people and be in a new environment-- even if it is just a different classroom.

I like new things... alot. So Guatemala arouses me beyond all excitment. New country.. new people....new language... new food.. new culture... new music.. new churches.. new everything!

Those nights before the first day of school....I'm having them now.. the nights before my first time out of the country. the first time on a missions trip.. .the first time being away from my family this long....

sweet dreams...