Everyone loves music.. I don't care who you are where you live.. we all like some kind of music. I too love music... I like being at home all by myself and playing the piano to songs I know (when I'm by myself I belt it like I were on stage.. o and like I had an amazing voice.) Among my friends, I am known for making parodies to songs. I can't do this on command.. only when I "feel it." My best one by far was when I was with my roommies last semester and I thought I was gonna puke. Another thing.. I don't normally remember thy lyrics after I write them.. but that one was to the "Desert Song" --"This is my prayer in this car, when everything inside feels like its going to come up? " Don't exactly remember.. but hopefully I painted a picture for you.

Over the past two years there have been some songs that have really meant alot to me. It's like I would learn something about God or He would be teaching me something and then like Emeril says, "BAM"-- I hear a song about it. I love it when that happens. Hearing the right song at the right time... now that's a good thing

At Liberty we have to attend 3 convocations (chapels) a week. Last Friday, I heard a song I needed to hear. Here's the lyrics... Don't worry I didn't change them to make a parody.

I made you promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I make you too small
I never feared you at all no
If you touched my face would I know you?
Looked into my eyes could I behold you?

What do I know of you
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
but the shore along your ocean?
Are you fire? Are you fury?
Are you sacred? Are you beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of holy?

I guess I thought I had you figured you out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How you were might to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caugh a glimpse of who you might be
The slightest hint of you brought me down to my knees.

What do I know of holy?
What do I know wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life it's name?
What do Iknow of holy?
Of the one who the angels praise?
All creation knows your name?
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

Lately, with this whole worry of not being real or genuine in my faith...I think I have forgotten some key elements... The words to this song helped me focus everything back into perspective.

I know so little about the God that knows me so well.

That explains these thoughts of not feeling real... how can you serve, promote, talk about, model, show, write about, read about something... if you don't know about it. The something I don't know as well as I thought is not a something but a someone... God.

Taking that line that says "have I even stood upon your ocean." I don't even know if I have yet to even test out the water... I think right now I'm preparing too. I'm putting on my sunscreen, gettting my goggles, and I got my raft. Now it's time to take the dive.

God, help me know You more. Give me understanding to help me comprehend the depths of your love, your grace, your mercy, your faithfulness, your forgiveness..... help me better understand the depths of Who You Are..

"I thought I had you figured out...but then I caught a glimpse of who you might be."